Well, here we are.  A year later.  Humbled by life again.  Ready to pick up and not quite start over where we were.  We failed miserably, as everyone who lives this struggle has at one time or another.  We begin again.  Details - the good the bad the ugly-  to follow soon.

......We're BACK......

Starting at the very beginning again.  A new start, a fresh start....We've missed our friends here.  We've missed the discipline.  More to follow.  Pictures soon... And here is how we fared: (not well away from the writing down, the accountability)

 

    Week One Weigh In

Mom-303 lbs

Shonda281 lbs

Justin-230 lbs

 

*DEEP SIGH*   Theres only one way to go from here.... DOWN! 

 

Well, it's been a while.... and vacation has come and gone.  And we are almost ready to start in posting again.  Life just keeps getting in the way.  Justin is never around for weighins... Shonda and I continue to fight the good fight.  I will say that during vacation I gained 10 lbs.  But I'm back down 8 of those lbs now.  I think it was the drinking...we did a LOT of that during vacation. And so I'm only at +2 now.  Shonda actually had one weighin where she lost weight from her last official weigh in, so she's in good shape.  Probably because she wasn't drinking..*LOL*  

ANYway, we will get back on track, and I may just have to redo our website and put it up for either myself, or Shonda and I.  Still pondering on that.  I DO find I have more discipline if I'm reporting somewhere. 

Just wanted to let everyone know that we haven't forgotten, and while we may have backslid a little, we are just about ready to get back here with our friends.    

I'm pretty sure this isn't a good thing, but sometimes you just have to have a break.  We officially let go of the weigh-in this week.  We'll be on vacation from Thursday through the next week.  And I intend on enjoying life without looking back, for just a little while. No scales, no counting, no organized excercise.  I DO have my reverse anorexia under control at the moment, and do realize that I really don't look as fabulous as I feel.  And after the vacation, we will be back in full force and I intend on tackling not only the 10 lbs or so that I'm sure will creep on, but the next 70.  Both kids seem to be better at "maintaining" than I am, being that I'm a binge eater as well as a closet eater.  Plus of course, they get a lot more "fun" excercise than I do.

Right now I'm struggling with guilt over this decision.  We've worked SO hard to get where we are now.  I hate giving in, even if it's only for a few weeks.  But if we really are going to do this, then I have to let go of the guilt, and just enjoy the pure pleasure of freedom from it all, or there's really no point in it. 

So- I'll check in and make sure the rest of you are keeping the fire, and to remind myself that it's something we have to get back to.  Keep inspiring and don't forget us!!!!      

Another week goes by, and I'm just counting this week as a place-holder....To be fair, we DID eat Taco-Bell the night before weighins....Not a smart thing, but life happens...And at least we all maintained. 

 

This game was great!  We need more like it!  Here are the results....

 

True Lie - My Nine Truths

Ok, while I'm giving everyone a chance to guess the truths about me...Thought I'd throw this out there..
I'm no where near my goal, but already I'm seeing the signs of "Fat Bast#rd Syndrom", all this skin that is going to be leftover, wrinkled and hanging and stretchable.  Especially the necks and arms, and even on the legs around the knees.  Now, there will never be a time that I can afford to have it removed.  I'm interested in how the rest of you will be dealing with the leftovers- skin that is! (too bad there isn't a way to "donate" it, like to a burn -unit or some other way to put it to good use!) For me now, I'm just loading it with lotion and hoping that someday it will shrink at least somewhat! *LOL*   

Ok.  Here are my ten... Which isn't true?

1.  I have not weighted under 200 pounds since I was 13.

 

2.  At 13 years old I "streaked" naked through a hotel room in Washington DC.

 

3.  My father was a WWII Veteran a Sgt serving with the Army Air Corp

 

4.  The only times I've been in car accidents have been when I was pregnant-both times.

 

5.  I walked the March of Dimes 20 mile March 3 times, when it was still 20 miles, not kilometers.

 

6.  I was on my high school track team.

 

7.  I am in love with both Prince and Brett Michaels - polar opposites. 

 

8.  All my sisters and brothers and myself were born in January.

 

9.  I have step sisters and brothers that I have never met.

 

10.  My children are "Kentucky Twins" born only 12 months apart.

 

Ok, so have fun with this.... Maybe it's not as exciting as some that I've read, but there is only one thing that isn't true....

So I"m still there, on a stand still, but I think the drive is finally coming back. Perhaps it is just time that helps with the Reverse Anorexia.  I think maybe your eyes/mind have to adjust to the new weight to see that you really need to keep going. And maybe at this point, I've maintained long enough to get there!!

And wow!  The kids are taking off!  Another loss for Justin, who's well on his way to that big 200 mark....and Shonda finally got out of the 270's!!!  GO girl!  I know the 270's were just hard for her.  SO here are our weekly results...I'm SO proud of how far we've come!!! 

 

  

Ok, I know I've been remiss.  Summer is just so busy!!!  But here are our weighins from the 8th.  And we are back on track!!  GO Justin!!!  He broke the 220's in style!! 

 

         Start Wght|Wght Now|Lst this wk|Lst Total

Well, I'm just not a happy camper with last week.  I think I'll blame the holiday. .....Back on the horse..back on the horse...

 

      Start Wght|Wght Now|Lst this wk|Lst Total

Anyone else having just a really bad week?  No motivation... just none.  I feel too controlled, too structured....I am the champion of rebelling and I just want to break every rule...Grrrrrr...Guess that goes to show that I have control issues and evidentally food plays into that BIG time.  A psychiatrist would have a WONDERFUL time with me...*L*

Justin    272        221       1          51

Shonda    315        270       0          45

Mom       355        285       4          70

TEAM ROUSH

          942        776       5          166

 

And here's what I've been taking care of this weekend to take up my time....

 

A little different "before and now" pictures if you will....

 

EAT TO LIVE .....DON'T LIVE TO EAT.....

EAT TO LIVE......DON'T LIVE TO EAT.....

EAT TO LIVE .....DON'T LIVE TO EAT.....

EAT TO LIVE .....DON'T LIVE TO EAT.....

 

FOOD = ENERGY....FOOD = ENERGY

Well, if "slow and steady wins the race", then I guess we are doing well.  And as long as the metal measuring goes down, I count it as a good week!  And we hit several mini-goals this week. Jusin hit the 50 lb mark!  Shonda hit 45 lbs!  And I'm out of the 290's!! This week just seemed tough for me.  I struggled all week, just with low motivation.  But hey, it's the beginning of a new week, a new chance, and a new attitude!   

 

 

       Start Wght|Wght Now|Lst this wk|Lst Total

Justin    272        222       1          50

Shonda    315        270       1          45

Mom       355        289       1          66

TEAM ROUSH

          942        781       3          161

And for even more encouragement here are some comparison pictures, some you've seen before, but wow, what a difference!!!

 

     JANUARY                MARCH               

           MAY

         

    JANUARY                      MARCH

 

           MAY

 

      JANUARY                   MARCH

 

 MAY

 

        JANUARY                   MARCH

 

     MAY

 

Week 18

While checking on friends this weekend, we saw a blog about non-scale victories, and it really inspired us!  Our weight-loss has slowed this week, and we needed a reminder that it isn't always about what the scales tell us.  (even though the scales never lie..oh wait, that's another show....*L*) 

SO I'll share my latest non-scale victory.  I got up at 5:15 AM this morning and took a brisk walk for 15 minutes.  Almost a jog.  My knee seems to be much better and I think I'm back on the road to health.  YEAH!!!  I missed my morning workouts!  (geez, was it me who said that????*L*)

SO, yeah me, and yeah to all of you who accomplish more than you were able too, 3 1/2 months ago!!!  We've come so far!!!  

A setback?? I don't think so...So this week we've all slowed down.  I guess that isn't a bad thing, as long as we're not going up!  And I'm sure that the slower weeks will happen more often, as we get smaller.  So the real challenge will be hanging in there when we dont' see results as often, or even if we have setbacks.  I think it will prove how serious we are.  And besides that we DID hit our halfway point!  Barely, but we have now lost 1/2 of one of us!!!!!!  WHOOHOOO!!  So I'm just going to celebrate that!!!  So here is our chart...and I can't get the kids together long enough to take comparison pictures, so I'll just share some "normal" pictures.

 

Sometimes I just wonder why we never did this before.  And then I realize that it just wasn't ever the right time.  We never had this avenue of support.  We never had this community of friends to make us feel so much like a team.  Thank you for being out there, for sharing this part of your life and struggle with us!!! 

And WHOOHOOO again!!  Another good week for us.  I only lost 2 lbs but I'll take it!  Justin keeps plugging along.  It's getting harder for him as he gets closer to his goal.  And Shonda did fantastic this week!!! 

I'll try to get new pictures up tomorrow sometime if I can round up kids.

And here are this weeks weigh-ins.  We are only 2 lbs away from our halfway point!!  Our goal at the beginning as a team, was to lose one of "us"...we took an average of 300 lbs and that is what we wanted to lose. Next week we will get it! 

 

 

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